Hey Xanga haha

Mainly posting to see if anyone else still frequents this.  Haven't logged on since my last post, which was a year or so ago and before that probably logged on once every 8 months since high school, or if I just needed to write when something shitty was going on.

I guess I'll update on current shit for the hell of it:

Shot a music video with Amrev II yesterday, I think it's going to come out well, and if not it was fun doing it
I went from being 2nd Drum Major Sophomore year to band manager and am now head drum major for my senior year
I worked my ass off to be able to graduate on time and am going to as long as I can handle my last 2 semesters of piano
working 2 jobs, graveyard shift in a factory 4 to 5 days a week and landscaping on the side 3 or 4 times a week
Playing shows probably 3 to 5 a month is awesome
Haven't ran or booked a show in a while, due to time and monetary issues
Looking forward to who I am living with this upcoming semester and hope to jam a lot
My dad is going in for rotator cuff surgery July 5th, keep him in your prayers/thoughts 

Can't say life has been too much better than this. Yes it is way too busy and stressful working one full-time job and a side job that I get newhere from 15 to 45 hours with a week.  Plus during the semester money is depressing since I have to work so hard while I'm at home to pay for school and to survive off of since LVC only gives a max 8 hours a week, plus my time there is valuable.  I still and always have been way too involved with shit.  Instead of athletics and one or two foundations now it's a shit ton of stuff.   I gave up a lot of my responsibilities but plan on being more involved than I should be.  Stepped down as vice president of the radio station, stepped down (as tradition) of president of NORML (sophomore and juniors typically run it while seniors advise), am still a normal member of the audio engineering society and MISA (but I'm an elder now), and also am the Fraternal Education Officer of Phi Mu Alpha Sinfonia.  That plus playing in a full time band, classes, lessons and 3 ensembles should be interesting but hopefully less stressful than in the past.

Cannot deny that the best part of my life is a lady named Lindsay.  I have finally met a girl that I can legitimately trust.  Staying away from those crazy vertically challenged girls and the psychos that go crazy and end up cheating on you and blame it on things you never did.  Not saying this was all my past relationships but probably 6 or 7 outta the 8 beforehand.  I do still believe that the one relationship was simply bad timing for us as individuals and what we were going through, but you have blossomed into a person that is nothing short of wonderful.  More important than the past is the present and the soon to be and I can only envision both of those with Lindz.  It's great being in a relationship with someone so similar in the way you look at things, your morals, and just the way you act.  We may not be the same, but we definitely are not polar opposites.  I feel that this is because we were brought up very similarly, both with some issues, but those issues made us stronger people and understanding people.  I love her, and not in the past like I would say a boyfriend should love a girlfriend, I really do love her and it's only growing stronger and getting easier.

I'm comfortable 

update from last post and more...

Have a witness that saw the whole thing and apparently I had gone through a green turning yellow light so hopefully all is going to sort itself out.

Away from that had an amazing night out with Steph, Brielle, Ricky, and Matt who are some of my co-workers.  It was a night of firsts and it was a lot of fun.

Kinda mixed up though, I may have feelings for a person I really don't think I should have feelings for, feels too right tho and has for a long time, just a good vibe, and I've put the whole idea in the back of my mind and forgotten about it.  I did this automatically from the first moment from over a year ago, but I can't hide that anymore.  We'll see if these feelings change in the next few days/week or 2.  I think I have to do some serious soul searching and a lot of writing.

July 25, 2010, Arthur Gardner

For those of you I did not tell yday, which was very few (I apologize, I needed some time to myself), this will explain everything.

I'll keep it relatively short but I want to give the whole picture...

Was working 6:30am to 2pm.  I was real sick all day at work, a head cold or something and was miserable.  At the end of the day (clocked out about 2:17ish), I started thinking and recapping this summer and realized how amazing it was.  Saw a good amount of shows, No Service Project is a band again, working a lot, partying a bit, but hanging out with friends nonstop and that's always a party with them.  Plus I just got my Jetta back from inspection and got the parts it needed finally, on top of getting the next session of my sleeve done this Thursday coming up.  It's been a good summer.  This was another high part of the summer...

I was also asked to play with Amrev II about 4 weeks ago since Devon's wife Nege is pregnant again (their alto sax player), so I've been jamming with them and was going down to their place after work to practice.  First show with them is in Allentown/Bethlehem and it's a festival Sublime will be playing.  I love it so much.  I still don't really know how to get there yet being my third time going and where they live is in Jim Thorpe, which I am in probably once every other year.....

On my way to Jim Thorpe I am watching my mapquest directions (my GPS was stolen in Hazleton last summer and I didn't have my Dad's) and it was before I was getting onto 93, but I wasn't sure about when I was supposed to turn to get onto 93.  So I look up, an ok distance from a 4 way intersection (I know ok doesn't describe it very well) and the light is green so I look at the map with no cars around me and by the time I find the spot on the directions I am in the intersection, ran a redlight without realizing.  I think I avoided one car pushing me into another lane before I was hit by a mini van.  My car spun I was told, tho I had no idea what was going on since the air bags deployed.  A lady came to check on me, I'm fine other than a bruise on my hand from the air bag.  It was a latino couple that hit me in the intersection, back passenger door is smashed in an incredibly good amount, possibly with the frame and my Dad took collision off of mine and my mom's car 2 months ago.  I had ran to see if the couple was okay but the fellow's wife was pregnant, when I saw this I just walked away numb, I didn't know what to do and was just scared.  They were both okay I was told, he just had an anxiety attack, understandably so, and she was taken to be checked on.  My prime concern was her baby and I'm still worried.  Everyone there said she should be okay at the spot but I'm still concerned.  That on top of my family being down to 2 cars again since the cadillac is down as well as my mom's transmission in the van.  That, and our financial situation isn't all that wonderful, especially right now, but that's not something to get into on here or necessary in any way.  No idea what will happen with my license or having a car at school which is also in the back of my mind, but either way I just want want to know how to reach the couple to talk to them or write a letter or something.  I feel so careless, I haven't run a redlight since I was 17, and have never caused an accident (been in yes, just not caused).  All just because I looked down at a map without judging distance to the light well enough when looking down.  I just hope everyone is okay and all works out for all parties.  No clue how fast they were going, think the speed limit for them was 35, not sure what mine is at that point but was going somewhere in the area of 38-40 before I was in the intersection....

I just want everything to be okay, sadly my summers can never be perfect.  Seems to be, whenever I recap a whole summer and bits into the future I get into a car accident.  Deja Vu to Joel's house the summer b4 I got to LVC with the Pontiac since it was that night that I did the same thing, just recapping and thinking about all that has happened and all that can happen.

I'm lucky to be alive, I feel numb still, but lucky.

My prayers are all for you, the couple and their unborn baby.  I have no idea who you are, but you have no idea how much I truly do care about you and your well being.  I just hope I can share that with you one day.

Peace'N'Love

I'll explain this post later

I need to jot these points down so i can remember it all to explain later, it sucked.

zombies, overseas, stuck in a little house, shooting friends sucks, shooting Fitz sucke the most.  Mad chill people take forever to turn into zombies after bit.  Last one left basically, can't get transportation, red hot air balloon from this little indoor strip thing, some dude popped it but got it repaired.  Got home, told parents but was already bitten.  Zombies didn't invade U.S. for quite some time after, friends from home (band friends) all dressed up after a dance but in Freeland.  Porches, more shooting, super not fun dream.

Short but Huge Update

well, school's been kicking my ass, but this time I have no excuse other than i suck at Music Theory as well as Lit/History or Music.

My past posts from quite some time ago were me in a really bad place due to things that happened to me because of others i believe i may have loved and others that I trusted with all my heart.  Well, I learned my lesson there and things are... better.

I have no time to really worry or be depressed or upset anymore with so much on my plate.  I'm a co-president of LVC's WLVC Radio Station.  Other than that i recently became president of LVC's NORML chapter which I plan on making into something huge on this campus and it already has a good amount of membership but lacks in action which I am going to change. 

Finally, Thomas and the Skank Engines are becoming a bigger deal...at least in my life.  We are going to have shirts and stickers coming in soon.  That and our demo will be out and ready for our tour (and is mad cheap and is simply given away with donations to the band).  We're in Warped Tour's BOTB this Friday at Eleanor Rigby's and then will be on tour February 27-March 7 playing on Feb 27, 28, March 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7th.  To all the lovely locals that I truly do miss we'll be in Hazleton March 4th and 6th so get ready for that.

It was a bit longer than I expected but it's been over 2 months since I last posted which is a rarity for me.

Love you all